Wednesday, May 31, 2017

27 Weeks of Pregnancy

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Welcome to my third trimester! Not a whole lot has changed, aside from getting a bit bigger! I’ve heard that this trimester somehow seems to pass by the very slow.... *crickets*. I’ve finally reached the point where I’ve had a few people say, “gemuknya!” or, “ni nanti lagi besar ni!” when I tell them I’m ‘duhh.. baru nak masuk 7 bulan kot'.

So anyway, I’ve gained 25 kilos since the first trimester (yes gemuk gila).  I’ve read my weight can either continue increasing by 500 grams per week, or slow down to stall out completely as you get closer to term and just have no room left to grow or put food. If I continue with the 1 kilo gain per week, that would put my total weight gain at 30 kilos and of course I will beranak awal. No! Sighs.

When I think about the fact that I (you know.. insyaallah) may/am likely to still be pregnant 60+ days from now, I cannot even wrap my head around how big my tummy is going to be at the end of this journey. I also cannot seem to stop touching/rubbing my perut these days. I’m not sure what that’s all about, but it’s oddly soothing to me!

To tell you the truth, I cannot imagine/visualize what's the situation inside the labour room will be like:
Must be scary.

Pray for me.


Thursday, April 20, 2017


Wow. It has been forever since my last post! i really didnt have the time and MAYBE im just lazy.

So im gonna start writing again. MAYBE.

Stay tune.


Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Angel From My Nightmare

A picture is definitely; worth a thousand words.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Things unexpected

Ive been on 6 different flights to 6 different countries for the past few months. I didnt think much what was i doing but i couldnt care less. But i feel so happy. I wish i wouldve done it earlier; enjoy the beautiful part of the world, etc etc. But, meh, back then i didnt have enough money to travel a lot like this. So, yeah. Understandable. 

I did everything in an impulse. I bought the flight tickets, and the next day here i was: Australia. Ive been flying around to Melbourne then to New Zealand, then flew back to Melbourne then to New Zealand again, something in that order. Back and forth. 90nzd one way. Why not? Obviously, this is what ive been doing right now. Takda kerja. Haha

I love Melb, such a nice place. So bandar with tolerable skycrappers and traffic. I wanted to upload some pictures, but later lah. Hehe

Then i went to Queenstown, New Zealand. Such a pretty place. It was so magnificient and hardly for me to describe in words. All i can say is your eyes are the best camera. The best gift from Allah SWT. Oh i went to Pacific Ocean, can u imagine? Gila best. I promise i will upload some pics later. Im coming back to NZ (and Melb duh...) anyway this August, of course i will.

Nak cite panjang. But too sleepy now.

P/s: I wasnt so ngantok just now, but now i am. Lols

Catchcu later.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Quick update

Ive gained weight; 3 kgs in 1 week? The power of rendang and raya fooood!

Selamat hari raya anyway peeps.


Every day

Choices. It’s about to pick up an option to walk away and not look back. Yes. You cannot have the best of both worlds.

It is what we think it is. It’s about choosing to ignore that phone call, and the next one and the next one. It’s about choosing not to call them back. It’s about choosing either an Xbox or an Atari. It’s about choosing your own list of songs to be listened to, it’s about choosing to dance to the song in your underwear or doing something you have never done before or doing something that makes you smile.

Yes… It’s just a process.

It’s there in your everyday life; either in the big things and the little things—in starting to wake up again on the same bed every day... and wearing different kind of dress, and then in removing the negative people in your life and in replacing them with a positive ones.

But of course, there are thousands of setbacks in achieving it.  

Me? I have been through a lot of tough decisions. I regret most of the decisions that I’d made in the past. I was young and gullible. I didn’t know any better: well.. Those are the normal familiar words that I utter to myself on a regular basis. I always use them to justify the choices that I have made in the past.

But anyway, everything happens for a reason. 

As a Muslim, I believe everything happens by the will of Allah. Whatever He wills, happens; and whatever he does not will does not happen. Nobody wants bad things to happen, right? Hence, the lesson to be learned today is that; underestimation the power of choice is a no-no. A bad decision made many times over and over, can have a profound impact on a lifetime, likewise.... for a good decision.


Bismillah… Just check all that tiny boxes and leave it to Allah.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014


Lately, I have rediscovered how it is to be happy again. That's why i'm back. It's such a strange feeling, and the word itself is strange  too, isn't it? I am happy with my new life right now, I am happy with my work--basically, I am happy with everything. Alhamdulillah. 

Happy is ... It is that feeling when you wake up in the morning, you feel like a champion yourself. You see, for me when you work on your passion, your best work will be an extension of who you are. The feeling that you bring back home everyday is important. I don't want to die with an unsatisfied heart, although sometimes I am afraid that I will only end up with broken things. And more broken things. I will always try to be as much efficient when I am in the office, so that that I can get back on everything on time. I know it sounds lame but hey, this is my definition of happiness. 

Yes, I admit sometimes that I don't even know what does happiness look like, sometimes I just get it from a person that I have a major crush on, sometimes the happiness is just from a simple text that he sent to me. This kind of things that sowed a little seed between my rib cage which later it will grow into a garden of flowers and trees and/or garden of eden in me. Man, can you feel me? 

I wish I could describe it by words. But I just cant. It's too strange.